Hi, yes, hello, it’s been a while. I finished my bedroom and then kinda just collapsed in a pit of exhaustion, both physical and mental, I think. I hesitate to say the last six months have been fallow time, because that makes it sound like I’ve been barren and unproductive, and that’s absolutely not the case. I kept up my daily meditation practice in the mornings, and I did a few rituals and other little bits, but for the most part, I wrote. I got smacked by the Muses with a shiny new fandom, and I wrote. So much writing. Nearly 140k in six months writing. It took over my entire life. So I don’t really want to call it fallow time, because I was being hugely creative, and writing poetry for the first time. I’ve done hymns and prayers before, but to me, they’re a different sort of skillset to poetry, and in particular, narrative poetry. But the verse just kept pouring out of me, and so I kept writing.
But even though I haven’t been practicing, I have been thinking about it. I particularly think about in December, when all the new planners come out and it’s getting closer to Wep Ronpet. I wanted to do something to rebuild my practice again in the new year, but I now recognise that one of the big challenges I face is that I see my ideal practice as containing everything, which is fine if you don’t have things you should be prioritising, but I do. And I think it’s time to give myself permission to just focus on the magical work I really need to be doing, like my Sau work, and bolster that with a few other things, and some witchcraft, and not worry about trying to do All The Rites To All The Gods. I think I get too caught up in that mindset, when really I just need to be a student and focus on the work I need to do. I’m not going to improve if I keep making endless schedules of rites to do that I don’t stick to. I have other work to do, and other skills I need to spend time on.
I was initially going to pack away my hearth shrine completely, but I’ve just scaled it down for now. You’ll see the final room, and all the shrines as they stand now, when I do State of the Shrines again at Wep Ronpet, because I feel ready to show that at last. I plan to start January doing a moon of devotion for Hekate, just to start and end the year, because that just seems appropriate, but whether that continues and I get back into my deipnon practice, we’ll see. Other than that, there are no other solid plans, apart from my magical work, and I don’t know if I’ll be posting here much, since that’s all oathbound. I don’t know how much of my shrines you’ll see either, since I don’t like showing my Sau shrine. I may not include it in the State of the Shrines, I’ll see how it feels when I get around to documenting all of that. But I did want to at least post here and let you all know I’m still alive.
Also, one final note. I’m not going back to tumblr. I haven’t decided if I’ll delete my accounts, or just leave them for posterity. They’re backed up on WP, though. I just don’t find tumblr to be conducive to my brain, nor does it feel like it helps to maintain ma’at, and I don’t want that energy in my life anymore. Also I dropped off discord bc it updated itself and broke Win10 so hard I had to uninstall it. The main places you can find me these days are twitter and dreamwidth. Feel free to follow me or friend me at either place, bc I post much more often there.